This goes to those people who dunnoe what it's like to be me...

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud T
hat no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life

best day!

Yester day which is 30 july is the day where i first time get to go hme LATE! All thanks to the concert. Yeah! After oral, went back home and took a bath and change to the most suitable clothes and not so hot clothes. Den, meet cassandra, Huimin and Roslyn at Hougang Mall. Wen i reach there, saw Cassandra with her boyfy. they look cute together eu know. hahax last long gurl ^.^! hahax. Den we all had a talk bout the dress we wear. And we all laugh. So we made our way to esplanade. But to bad Cassandra boyfy did not follow. Cassandra so lonely. pity her. Well atleast she got huimin, me and roslyn with her of coz with shikin.
The whole journey, we were talking none stop. From seranggoon, we change to circle line and straight to esplanade. Finally reach the place. Wen we want to take the elevator up, suddenly it doesn't work. so, huimin, shikin, cassandra and roslyn go up using the spoil escalator while i go by the staircase. it was so tiring but fun. we waited for roslyn to reach the top. Before going to the theatre, we spent our time taking photos of each other. even in the train actually. Den after all the walking, we sat for awhile. tired of walking in those crowd. everyone was like pushing each other. can't they wait? gosh.
After tat we bought sumting at 7eleven. Cassandra and roslyn buy ice cream, shikin buy the garlic bread buy 1 get 1 free and i buy chocolate milk.

Cassandra: wow this is the first time i eat haagen dazs.
me: really uh?
Cassandra yah!
Then we all laugh. Shikin gave me one of her bread. So i eat half and another half i gave it to roslyn. The bread is so solid tat i can't bite it. Shikin throw it away. wat a waste. atleast i finish half of it. So roslyn ate the other half. she share wif cassandra. They both eat everything.
It was 7plus and we quickly made our way to the theatre. on our way, cassandra wanted to sit. den i saw mr neo and shouted his name. Cassandra quickly stand up and say "Mr Neo i want take picture wif eu!" He was with his wife and Son. Once reach there, there were lots of yuying students and teachers. We took pictures everywhere. We even take pictures with the THEM. ok just take lah. like i care. After tat, we took the escalator up to our place. We saw Mr Loh was taking attendance. Cassandra took picture wif him. And i took picture wif him too. We took picture with ashik and mr Taha too. And finally we had a group photo with mr loh. Tats so fun. den we made our way in the theatre. wow our place is so high up. Cassandra sat beside me and beside her was roslyn and beside roslyn was yunyi and another side of me was shikin. Huimin had to seperate with us as her sit was at the top of us. Den we took picture again inside. Den the show started. Me and Cassandra were talking about her boyfy and suddenly cassandra miss hers. She miss her badly. she show me her photo with him. Sweet! Blahblahblah. around 10 finally the concert end. cassandra and roslyn went seperate ways with us. So me,huimin, shikin, Dyon and his two more friends went out of the esplanade and were planning to go somewhere. Then i and huimin wanted to go to the singapore flyer to see see only but the way there was closed due to YOG thinggey. so we change plan to go to the colour full bridge. The reason why we call it colourfull is bcoz the bridge has so many lights and it is so colourful. Hahax! Again we cant go there as it is closed AGAIN! so we walk back to esplanade. So cramp. full of people. Huimin hug me and shikin in order not to lose us. we laugh at each other. we squeeze our self between people to get an opening. finally we made it. We follow dyon and gang. While walking, huimin wanted to go to clark quay. It was almost 11. i also wanted to go cos its the onie time i can came home late. We all took the train to clark quay. While we were taking the escalator down, we saw mr danny, he was so smart in his Suit!he Stand at the right side of the escalator. he was blocking people's way.

Me: Cher eu show bad example to us. eu blocking people way.
him: Huimin also mah.'
den he quickly rush down coz his train has stop. Me and gang too rush for the train. Mr Danny run for the closing door and we all had a great laugh. Den dyon say tat we rush for the wrong train. Mr danny laugh at us. So our train reach and we say gdbye to him. blahblahblah we reach clark quay. we were so hungry. Huimin and i wanted to see wat we called it bunjee Jump. hahx. one of dyon's friend want to ride it gosh i always forgot his name. Den i say to them buy food first if not eu cannot ride it. den we all went to burger king and bought the 4.95 burger meal. we eat at the water side facing the BUnjee jump. We all scream went the thing fly up or swing. people were all staring at us. we like mad people. hahax. Den I scream not bcoz of tat. i saw a cockcroach coming towards me and huimin. i quickly stand up with my fries and step away from tat thing. huimin grab me and run away too. shikin, dyon and his friends were trying to step on it but they miss. Den one of dyon friend say" why eu teo gurls scared of cockcroach for wat. den we ignore him. the cockroach went away and we sat bck to our place. so we continue talking and eat. den the cockroach came bck. i stand up again w/o saying a word and walk away with my burger. huimin stand up but dunnoe wat thing. she ask me why i walk away but i just staring at tat thing. den huimin saw and jump to me. She scolded me for not telling her. she say to me not to keep quiet went there's a cockroach. so we all laugh.

Damn! it was 12am! i was late.

There were no train. so we rush to the bustop. me and dyon two friends take 51, huimin, shikin and dyon take separate bus. Luckily the bus i take is the last bus if not, i have to take cab and who pay?we wave and say gdbye to each other. We sat at the top. we talk. And i tell them we are not going to reach home before 1! they ask why and i say the bus driver is driving so slow. about 40km/h. slower then other buses. we keep complaining. it was already dark. Reach hougng arnd 1255. one of them drop first and me and another friend drop the next bustop. once reach my stop it was 1257, i run my way bck home. it was so spooky. full of silence. no one was around. it was a quiet nite. i wa in the lift and called my mum to open the door. i reach home at 1am SHARP. i thought my parents or brother are going to wait for me at the door to lecture me, but lucky me they were all asleep. hahax. i saw my mum and i gave her a smile. and she ask me why so late so i say no train i have to take the slowest bus i ever ride bfore. so she did not say much and went bck to sleep. i change my clothes and went to the kitchen to find some water in the fridge. I did not on any lights. It was dark. My brother gave me a shock coz he was standing rite next to the fridge. He laugh and ask me why so late and i explain again. He say ok and net time not to reach home late. He smile and laugh and walk off. he is a soft and gentle brother. wash my face and sleep. Finally i get to go to sleep. listen to music and Dreams....
Orang lau dah uat salah tk pernah nk mengaku. Suke salah kan orang lain. I know my limits and my character. Ko rase happy bab org tk bobual pasal ko. Korang suker ual pasal orang lain. PERGI MAMPOS UH! Suker ati aku uh nak buat aper. diri aku per. its my freedom and YOU have no way to control it. PAHAM! WatEVA!